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Ai shite yamazu (Unending love)
by Satomi Kataoka
Nisshin Houdou, 2001, 147 pages

Satomi Kataoka, who also authored Bushidō, koko ni yomigaeri (Rebirth here of samurai code) in 2001, presents in Ai shite yamazu (Unending love) her personal experiences and her profound admiration for bushidō and the great men who followed the way of the samurai even to death. Although she mentions a few historical facts, her intensively subjective approach to the topic focuses on her emotions and even becomes somewhat mystical at times. The subtitle of Fantasy Love with Vice Admiral Takijirō Ōnishi, Father of Special Attacks, describes the book's primary topic, but she also frequently mentions details about her life.

Chapter 2, the most autobiographical of the book's three chapters, covers hardships Kataoka had to overcome. Her parents send her to Los Angeles at age 15 with a meager monthly allowance, so in order to survive she makes money at various jobs such as pool cleaning, car washing, newspaper delivery, and working at McDonald's (where she also almost always eats). While in the US she reads Japanese ultranationalist Yukio Mishima's book entitled Yūkoku (Patriotism), which fills her with admiration for bushidō's tenets of loyalty and self-sacrifice. She becomes homesick while reading the book and decides to return to Japan at age 21. In 1990 at age 25, she becomes President of Princess Garden Hotel in Tokyo after meeting one of her uncle's business associates.

Alberto Fujimori served as Peru's President from 1990 to 2000, and he stayed at the Princess Garden Hotel when he returned to Japan after his exile from Peru. In April 2006, Kataoka married Fujimori, who is about 30 years older. After a long and controversial trial in which Fujimori was charged in Peru with human rights violations and corruption, he received in 2009 a 25-year jail sentence. Kataoka displays in Ai shite yamazu (Unending love) a fascination and love for powerful older men such as Vice Admiral Ōnishi, 54 years old at his death, so her marriage to the much older Fujimori may not have been such a surprise. As an aside, a small desert town in Peru renamed itself Satomi Kataoka in honor of the former President's wife.

Chapter 1 describes Kataoka's first visit to Yūshūkan Museum at Yasukuni Shrine as a key event that transformed her way of thinking and living. When she goes to a special exhibition of last letters written by kamikaze pilots and others who died during WWII, she is amazed and impressed as she reads them. She bursts out crying as she considers the beautiful and noble words written by kamikaze pilots who she considers to have bravely given their lives for their country and families. At Yūshūkan Museum she also encounters Admiral Isoroku Yamamoto, Commander of the Combined Fleet until his death in April 1943, and Admiral Seiichi Itō, who commanded battleship Yamato on her suicide mission toward Okinawa on April 7, 1945. At the end of the museum tour, she becomes enthralled with the exhibit on Takijirō Ōnishi.

A museum placard gives the story of Vice Admiral Takijirō Ōnishi that fascinated Kataoka so much. In October 1944, Vice Admiral Ōnishi as Commander of the First Air Fleet had only about 100 aircraft left including 30 fighters when he arrived at command headquarters in Manila. In this desperate situation, Ōnishi believed the only chance of success would be to carry out taiatari (body-crashing) suicide attacks against enemy ships. Ōnishi, appointed Vice Chief of the Naval General Staff late in the war, committed harakiri or seppuku (ritual suicide by cutting open his belly) on August 16, 1945, the day after the announcement of the end of the war by the Emperor. He suffered more than 15 hours before dying, and he refused any medical attention.

Ōnishi's last letter at Yūshūkan Museum expresses his appreciation for his men's skilled fighting, his apologies to their spirits and bereaved families, and his desire that in peace the Japanese people will keep up the tokkō (special attack) spirit and will do their best for Japan's welfare and for peace among the world's peoples. Ōnishi used to tell departing kamikaze pilots, "I too surely will go after you." In the same way, Kataoka voices her commitment, "Your Excellency, Mr. Ōnishi, I also someday will surely go, following your path." Soon after her first Yūshūkan Museum visit, as described in the book's Introduction, Kataoka returns to view the blood-stained sheets, gown, and uniform from Ōnishi's suicide, which had been stored in two trunks that had not been opened for more than 50 years. She takes the blood-stained items with both hands, rubs them to her cheek, and holds them to her breast.

The supernatural emerges in Chapter 3 when two or three apparitions visit Kataoka's bedroom in the middle of the night about two months after her first visit to Yushukan Museum. Two of the spirits are Captain Teruzō Andō and Asaichi Isobe, who took part in the February 26th Incident, a short-lived unsuccessful coup d'état in 1936 led by a faction in the Imperial Japanese Army. They request that Kataoka visit their graves when she goes to Ōnishi's grave since they are nearby. Ōnishi then mysteriously tells her in her bedroom, "Next to my grave is open." When Kataoka visits Ōnishi's grave for the first time, she talks to him as follows (pp. 126-7):

Mr. Ōnishi, it is Miyako.

On the 53rd day after meeting you for the first time at Yushukan Museum, I have been able to come like this before your grave.

I had lived in whatever way I wanted according to my youth and selfishness, but I changed when I came in contact with the supremely courageous and patriotic deeds of Your Excellency and the Special Attack Corps members.

If you look, despite all of these noble sacrifices, Japan has lost both its pride and self-confidence. We are despised by other countries and continue on the road of ruin for our country. In order to once again make a recovery, somehow we must learn from your actions in which you all gave your lives, and we must make a firm decision to continue after you.

The long period of postwar humiliation and debate has ended.

Your Excellency, you said, "the purity of youth will usher in the Divine Wind."

If you need new offerings of human lives for the country's defense, I will go running straight ahead in my youth.

Your Excellency, I will go. Following your path, wherever.

When Kataoka goes to visit Ōnishi's grave, she discovers that there is open space to the right side of his grave. She asks the Buddhist priest who accompanied her, "If I were placed beside the Vice Admiral's grave, do you think his wife would allow me to be there?" The priest responds, "His wife Yoshie was a very tolerant person. There is no problem." She leaves thinking, "Please wait for me, Your Excellency. Someday surely you'll keep with me the vow from the land of the dead." Kataoka ends this emotional ultranationalistic book by expressing her unending love for Ōnishi and her commitment to give her life on behalf of Japan.